I'll have some focus and patience, and a side of fries please

Today I became giddy at the description of a literary agent my best friend had queried. She was, in a nutshell, the exact target demographic for the fiction work I've been puttering away on for something like five years.But I'm not done. Nowhere near done. My "book" is three chapters and some detailed outlines. Plus about a hundred scenes (literally 100) that I've been mapping.I have a strong general concept. Three well-drawn characters beginning to take shape.But that's it.I'm not ready to approach agents.Which makes me sad. I'm incredibly risk averse, in finance and in life, so I'm realizing that I'm simply afraid of "risking" success or failure by doing the thing. That thing being finishing this book. Or at the very least working on it in some kind of disciplined fashion.Focus and patience can be daunting for me. I'm a high-energy type of gal, with high expectations and I work in PR so HELLO I need things done yesterday. When it comes to writing and crafting a creative outlet, it's not about simply getting something done. There is no deadline.This blog has been a huge anxiety relief. It's taken a bit of the sting out of my self-deprecating reminders that I'm "not writing anything" because lo and behold, this blog be written. And most importantly, it feels like I'm leading myself to the water. I'm tapping into creativity and scribing these little snippets of my musings (see what I did there). and It's making me more creative!Even in my work writing my fellow scribes and marketing editors are reading a difference. My blogs and articles are snappier, easier to read. Jargon, be gone!In 2016 I ended up reading quite a few creative writing focused books. Including "From Where You Dream" by Robert Olen Butler. He's a writing professor and has this brilliant way of scene creating on index cards, letting it all flow, piecing it together and rearranging then rearranging again to cull the narrative out of creative mind flow.There are loads of amazing and inspirational books including Ray Bradbury's "Zen in the Art of Writing" and of course Rilke's "Letters to a Young Poet" which includes some poignant life advice.So advice to myself? Just do the damn thing. And enjoy the journey along the way. You can order up some focus and patience from deep within, but don't be so hard on yourself. Order the fries, and try to have some fun.Writing, for me, is for fun after all. Otherwise, what's the point?